Its a new me...

Long time since I've been to this blog. A lot has changed since the last time I posted something. I wish to be more regular now. I am in a new place in my own life. Even though we feel we make our own decisions and the way our life is directed. But its hardly ever that way.

For instance, I might have chosen to be in this particular part of the world or a specific kind of job. But who all play a part when I am here is totally a different ball game altogether. I love my life. I feel blessed. Other than my weight there is not a tiny speck of my life here in Doha that I would change. :)

Thank you god...

Vote do Vote do

Jago Re...Vote ya Vaat...Lead India!!!
All campaigns stressing on the need to vote. Stressing on electing a right candidate for us and the future of our country.

U take one newspaper...surf one channel...either its these guys or its the parties trying to showcase their never known integrity to the people. I am sick to the core with these things...especially with the vote karo campaingners...

Be it this election or some other election....politics on Indian soil is still going to be the same! Shitty and cheap.
By asking me to vote your asking me to chose lesser of the two evils. Thats it.

Some of the following things that happened are quite frustrating...
Lead India winner RK Mishra shamelessly joined BJP....of all the parties BJP! Couldn't he have contested independently? Everyone want to mint big bucks from the system. So even he did...that justified enough.

Wasnt there a news on Sanjay Dutt - appointed the national general secretary of Samajwadi Party (SP)....why oh god why? How is he every fit for a position like this. Just because his career is gonna take a toss owing to his age doesn't mean...anywyas.

Election Commissioner Navin Chawla - Candidates contesting the Parliamentary elections from jails should be treated like ordinary prisoners as mentioned in jail manual. Hello.....if they are prisoners why the hell are they contesting???

Varun Gandhi and his shamefully communal campaign. He too has learned the tricks of the trade and knows that in order to graob attention "need to flare up the communal sparks". And he precisely did that.

Rahul Gandhi - contested from Amethi and projected his net worth of almot 2.25 cr. Where is this money coming from Rahul Baba? This amount is only the one he has openly disclosed...

No matter what family legacy or affiliations people have. Deep down they all are a strange species who speak and drink and eat of utter shameless politics.

And then there are the other bunch, flim stars, directors, business men who find it quite fashionable to speak for a cause like "vote karo". Can you please stop eating my media bandwidth with this crap of voting and elections. I am amazed at your capacity and capability to feel strongly about something as fashionable as this. But can we just stop it and move on with our lives....

The only positive note I see is Capt. Gopinath and I wouldn't be much surprised if he too takes
on the mantel like everyone else. Excerpts from an interview

Why did you prefer to be an independent?
No party is free of corruption and caste politics... I don't want to be a prisoner in these parties. I believe an independent candidate is more powerful and free than a party candidate. If we have 20 to 30 independents, we can be key drivers. We cannot expect this to happen immediately, but I think we have to sow the seeds now.
Read his interview

Forgiveness

Forgiveness:
For a total stuck-up it would mean as something that someone who has done us wrong must ask of US. My thoughts on forgiveness are that you focus on offering forgiveness TO the person who has wronged you.
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I really wanted to dole out a lot of my sadness here...but somehow I dont feel like doing it now.

UPA's wins Confidence Motion

Thankfully to a disturbingly growing wisdom tooth I was pinned to my couch on 22nd and got to see the debate. I never imagined to my cleverest imagination that this would be so great. Thanks a ton my very painful and upsetting wisdom tooth!!!
There are many things this loksabaha session in general and motion in particular will be remembered for...

1. N Deal which practically every opposition(but left!!!) forgot to emphasise upon!!! Duh Huh...
2. Cash for Votes: Remember the fight wherin leaders went into a fist fight. That day felt as if the lowest for Indian Democracy...Untill July 22nd 08 happened. Three political protitutes walking in with wads of money and flaunting it...accusing people of handing it to them!!! Gimme a break...1 crore for abstaining. A vote that could decide the future of whose on the gaddi and whose not....and just 1 crore. Firstly since when have our politicians been attracted to small sums like 1 crore!!!

3. Young Blood: Truly...this is what I will remember this 22nd july for. Young leaders who have had the balls to speak out...not just to make noise but with great articulate thought behind every single word. Hats off to you guys.....there are a few who remarkably stood out and I would like to list them


Omar Abdullah:
“Today, the Left is telling me that all secular parties should stand with the BJP to bring down this government. The same Left treated me like a political untouchable when I was with the NDA.”
“I am not a member of the UPA and don’t aspire to be one. I made a mistake to be with the NDA, especially after Gujarat riots happened. My conscience had asked me to quit NDA but I didn’t. My conscience has still not forgiven me,”


With such vigour and passion he spoke that it stirred the entire house. He was crisp, to the point and extremely charged up. I always always always loved him. But now I also respect him for the eloquence and charm and oratory skills. There a very few who can hold a crowd by just speaking and he sure is one...I would love to see him as one of the front runners of future India.

Asaduddin Owaisi
“I am very well aware of the Left’s hatred against the minorities. While there are about 28 percent Muslims in the West Bengal, why is it that their representation is merely 2 per cent? This is not the way to claim supporting the minorities. If you want to support the BJP, then go ahead. But I am very clear, if Advani becomes the Prime Minister who will suffer? I will suffer a loss. I have already suffered the loss of the Babri masjid,”


I have never even heard of this guy. I was surely shocked by the guts and galore he put behind his speech. His idea was simple. N Deal or No Deal. This confidence motion is turning into a make-hay-while-sun-shines by opportunists...and he did not want to be a part of it. He made his stand as a Muslim as a minoroty clear. He did not want BJP or Left in power....simple and crystal clear! Looking forward to more of him and his guts. Truely great...




Ranjeet Ranjan


A woman speaker who could give Sushma Swaraj and Renu Chowdhary combined a run for their money. She started out at a time when the BJPians were at their vulnerable best and knew they would fall and fall big. So were creating a lot of commotion.


She said I am the first woman to speak in this debate and I demand a little respect from you all. And she got it!!!


She was fiery and passionate. Single handedly she was slaying the BJP and the Akali's.
She clearly made the Akali members put to shame and disgust by questioning their releigious sanctity. She flayed them for asking PM Manmohan Singh what he had done for Punjab. "Sikhs are ready to fight and die for the country and never demand anything in return."
Certainly a woman of substance and courage too.....



Rahul Gandhi I believe he was the most awaited speaker for the day. But....hmmmm was kinda let down for me atleast. Or is it because we are expecting a lot from him. After all he's what 30 something...I feel the pic above says it all.
But then again his speech was emotional, but lacked passion. Passion and drive are quite a far cry for him currently. Untill then we will have to live with a memorised-every-line Rahul!
He is clearly preparing to be a future PM, and everybody around him considers him as a prodigy. He still has a lot to prove. But I feel that he would choose a right blend of people in his cabinet and that would infact take the country forward.
Plainly Omar stole the show for him....but I clearly liked the way he kept his cool when opposition was hunting him down with their running commentry.

Usual Charmers
Chidambaram and Lalu were at their best in their own way. While the FM stuck to statistics and facts that nobody could deny, his funny counterpart aimed sling shots at every enemy in sight and that too with panache. Great going Laluji....

Inspire the greatness in you

I could sleep last nite..many thoughts running. Recently I have started to get these very heavy emotional rushes whenever I see a pitiful sights. Be it the bad roads, the traffic, people wasting water, thousands of one manned vehicles on the roads, kids in labour...but what most troubles me is the way we all have become de-sensitised! As if this was the exact way it was supposed to be. It seems as though we have all been sterilised with a facade that prevents us from having any emotions for such occurences. Yes occurences is what they are to us....mere everyday occurences!

I always had these rushes.....these emotional rage to do something right. But I used to ignore it as a hormonal thing flagging the 'coming soon' blue days! But no.....it can't be just that!
I beleive yesterday that myth broke....and I decided. I am just not gonna keep it mum. Keep it silent.
There is this sweeper lady who cleans up the roads everyday, and she stands just across the road where I wait for my cab. I see her picking up people's filth(plastic bags...urggh) every single day. Its been almost 2 months now. Finally I could see her that way. So prone to health hazards...so vulnerable to all x,y,z virus's that we throw out of our house! I dint know what to do. Should I give her money, or just a word of appreciation for her good work, or should I help her...I have never done this before! Who is she to me...what will people think if I talk to her... Just when I was thinking what to do she looked at me. And she smiled...in all her unimaginably stinking situation she smiled at me! Why? I was only thinking about her...thats all! I dint even do anything....but she kept on smiling and put her hands forward like she was blessing me! Why? Just for the sole reason that we both spend 10 minutes of our day on the same road at the same time....And it stuck me....I knew what to do....
I got her a pair of gloves! Thats what she needs.....simple! It wasnt gonna solve all her pains and problems in life...but then she needs to know that people respect her...her work! Just a small token of thank you....
She took it from me hesitantly....smiled back and asked me to open and teach her how to wear it. But the look that she gave me, brought tears in my own eyes! My cab then came and I left...she waived me good bye!
I was in my cab...on my everyday route and suddenly I see so many such women. Same pitiful state. Till date I could see only her coz it was very obvious..she was right in front of me. But there are hundreds of them. And I prayed to God. I prayed like anything....
God give me the strength to see others pain and make me an instrument in whichever small/big way to ease their pain.
The same day after coming back from office I saw couple of Oprah videos on you tube. And a sense of greatness dawned on me. The kind where I needed only compassion and will to make a difference...
(I actually came about to do a post on Oprah. I absolutely love her. If at all God gives me a chance to change a thing in my life I would ask him to give me a life like hers. Passionate, dedicated, generous....I am running out of adjectives! I can never have words to define her. )

She is a Saint in a Valentino!!!
One of her speeches that really inspires me and with which I would like to start all my days with...
(OPRAH WINFREY SPEECH - NAACP 2005 HALL OF FAME INDUCTEE)
There is a beautiful line in a Maya Angelou poem that I love called 'To our grandmothers'.
And the line says...'I come as one but I stand as 10000'.
And tonite... I stand as 10000 to the 10th power. Representing all of those whose names we know made the history books....and the millions who dn't...for those who marched...for those who prayed...for those who sang and bled... for those who beleived and for those who died...
I stand as 10000 to the 10th power

I stand for those who knew a new day was coming.....but never recieved a moment of noteriaty a moment of applause...for their courage..for their commiment... for their command to be free. And because of them today I stand on solid rock.
It is the rock that I know they laid they laid for me, for us because I know they were the seed of free and becoz they were the seed I get to be the fruit!!
I know this...I get to be the fruit and create a new ground for freedom to blossom everyday on my own television show!

This I know for sure that God can dream a bigger dream for you than you can ever dream for yourself!

Since I was a child i asked God how do you use me and how can I live in that dream...so I thank u for this great acknowledgement for being in the Hall of fame.
And I believe I am gonna run on...see what the end will be and keep surrendering to Gods dream for me...

I so wish I could be even a tinge of the person that she is....

 ....hhhmmm...
I never really got it why Meredith went McDreamy...or even McSteamy....or why half the women species on the planet go the same way about Brad Pitt. Moveover Mc Dreamies and Steamies......Mr Butler's here!

Gosh, what an appeal. Raw. Direct. Adriot. Appealing. Having pleasing proportions.(if you don't get this point, then go and watch 300) Yet.... a Charming Incantation. Thats Gerard Butler. 
Thank God for finally corssing my path. Atleast from now on I have a name to say whenever I am asked exagerattedly stupid questions like 'Whose the sexiest man alive on Earth?'. Mr Butler ...you are!

pain

Everybody wants a life without pain....And what does it get you? ...This girl needs to be on a poster somewhere...to remind people 'pains there for a reason'!
-Dr Miranda Bailey in Grey's Anatomy while operating on Megan, the girl who had high sensitivity to pain....the girl who couldn't feel pain!!!

Well wouldn't we all love that! A life without pain.....

Today was just yet another day when I switched on a TV channel to watch Baba Ramdev's show. You see one episode, one session, in some remote part of the country and you feel the pain in the world. Cancer, sleep apnea, leaukemia, asthma, chronic heart ailnesss's, muscular distrophy and many such diseases that you can even barely spell correctly. And suddenly you feel so small in front of Him.... you feel so selfish...you feel so ungrateful. You remember all those times you cursed and asked God to help you catch a catch a rick back home, coz for you thats the worst pain you could go through 'that' day. Or the days you curse your fertile womb, that flushes out the divine blessing of bearing a child in a messy way...saying why me?

Dr. Bailey is right...pain is there for people to remind of something. To remind suttle truths..facts...that just might get lost in a day of chores, work, children, money! Pain is for a reason for you to stop and look back, not necesarily change your ways, but atleast ponder. Heartbreaks~heart-attacks, loss of a dear one~loss of your favourite blue shirt at the laundry, broken heart~broken nail...these are all pain! None less, noen more!
Just needs for us to sit, sit still and go within the pain...but then its still pain and its there for a reason.

A reason quite beyond our imaginations....